Darling Hope-Dominique, we never knew why you were taken from us until your baby brother Noah was born. We miss you everyday and we are very proud to be your mam and dad.  I love you so very much and wish you were here with us.

Noah James Numan
Died 31.12.06
Born 03.01.07
Gestation 26 weeks

Noah James, I love you with all my heart and I will think of you everyday. You are such a big part of our lives and always will be. Thank you my darling for putting up such an amazing fight. I am so proud to be your mam. I love you xxxx

Willow Numan

Born 26.11.07

Gestation 15 weeks

Darling Willow, you were with us for such a short time, but during that time I fell totally in love with you.  I dreamt about the day you would be born, what you would grow up to be, what you would look like.  But instead of all of these dreams and hopes coming true, you are with your brother Noah and sister Hope.  Have fun with them both and know that I love you so much and I always will.


               

(Please note, Noah's story has been moved to "His Legacy"

 Noah James Numan, my Angel, my Son

Our dreams have been shattered, our grief has begun

Always remain in my heart and my thoughts, with

Hope-Dominique, she also fought. 




January 3rd 2007 you were born & my heart broke some more 


  April 10th, the day you were due, we'd dreamt of our family which   
               included you.
Mummy's heart aches, longing to hold
Eternally you play with your friends in the clouds.
Some day I'll hold you in my arms again



    Noah James Numan, my love will remain.
Up there in Heaven you watch over me
My love is so strong, I hope this you see.
Answers won't come, I'll never know why, till we're together
               again, up there in the sky.
Noah James Numan you took a piece of my heart, with you 
               the day, that we had to part.  

                     

My sweet Angel Noah, has gone to be with his sister Hope-Dominique. Hope died at 19 weeks & 1 day on 01 October 2003.At the time we were told that they didn't know why she had Hydrops and it was a one in a million chance of happening as all tests came back negative. Only since Noah was born did we find out that Hope also had LMPS (check out Noah's Timeline for more about this) 
 

My precious Angels, playing together as brother and sister should. If only it could have been here, with mummy playing aswell.



Angel

Now, I realise, just how precious life can be
I took forgranted this little one, inside of me
And now I've lost her forever
I've lost you forever.



Why, you couldn't stay, why you had to go
Why you were taken from us we'll never know
But in your short life, I'm still amazed
How you touched so many lives and I'm still amazed
How you healed so many hearts.



You're the Angel at my side each night
You're the brightest star in the sky tonight
And I will hold you in my arms forever My Angel.



I'll never know, the colour of your eyes
And I will never hear you, laugh or cry
I'll never hold you in my arms, and wipe the tears from your eyes
It's just so unfair, but now I realise. 



You're the Angel at my side each night
You're the brightest star in the sky tonight
You brought hope, to those who knew of you
Darling Hope-Dominique, you were given to us
Hope-Dominique, you were taken away
Hope-Dominique, I'll love you
All my life. 


(Written for Hope-Dominique by Mummy)

 

Noah's Song

What did I do to deserve loosing you?

I wanted you, needed you, prayed for you for so long.

I'll never forget the day my prayers were answered.

I'll never forget the day my dreams were shattered.

When we were told you were sick and would not live

My world fell apart cos I knew I had to start

Preparing to say goodbye before I knew you

Preparing to say goodbye before I held you.

Noah James, you will always be my son

You'll be in my heart forever, this I know.

Everyday I had to check your heart was beating

Everyday was a day it might stop

Everyday you held on just a little longer

And everyday my love for you grew stronger

Noah James, you will always be my son

You'll be in my heart forever, this I know

Noah James, you will always be my son

You'll be in my heart forever, I Love You.

Noah's Song by Mummy (the words to the music playing now)

Willow's Song

So Fragile, So Vunerable 

So easy for things to go wrong

So quietly there, almost imperceptible

So siliently slipping away.

So many hopes are gone, and so many dreams are

shattered, the promise of new life's been taken away.   

   So little time with me, yet long enough to be, engraved

on my heart forever.

So many tears have flown, true heartbreak now is known

I'm in a world that I don't understand

So many things have changed, they won't ever be the same

I'll never be the person I once was.

 So many hopes are gone, and so many dreams are

shattered, the promise of new life's been taken away.

So little time with me, yet long enough to be engraved on

my heart forever

There's so many things, I want to say to you

There's so many things I want to see you do

But I'll never, get the chance to hold you, get the chance

to comfort you or even watch you grow.

All I can do, is imagine who you'd be, just imagine you're

here with me.

So many hopes are gone, and so many dreams are

shattered, the promise of new life's been taken away.

So little time with me, yet long enough to be, engraved on

my heart forever.

Don't let them say I wasn't born, 
that something stopped my heart. 
I felt each tender squeeze you gave, 
I've loved you from the start.~

~Although my body you can't hold, 
it doesn't mean I am gone, 
this world wasn't worthy of me, 
GOD chose that I move on.~

~I know the pain that drowns your soul, 
what you are forced to face. 
You have my words, I'll fill your arms, 
someday we will embrace.~

~You'll hear that it was " meant to be
 GOD doesn't make mistakes," 
but that won't soften your worst blow, 
or make you heart not ache.~

~I'm watching over all you do, 
when you are in so much pain 
that you find it hard to bear, 
believe me when I say to you, 
that I am always there.~

~There will come a time, I promise you 
when you will hold my hand, 
stroke my face and kiss my lips, 
and you'll understand.~

~Although I've never breathed your air,
 or gazed into your eyes, 
that doesn't mean I never "was." 
An Angel Never Dies.                  

My Angel Friends

http://nevaehangel-princefraser.memory-of.com

http://jordan-ezra-taffe.memory-of.com

http://www.patrickjayclark.memory-of.com

This was made by Nevaeh's mummy. Thank you so much for sending so
much love to my Angels.